Thoughts about adding baby #3 {Maternity Photos}

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In two weeks I am having a baby – baby #3 and lately I have been a whirlwind of emotions.
I am going to blame it on the fact that I am in fact – pregnant… very pregnant.

{burst into tears…}

See, I can’t even think about what I want to write without tears springing to my eyes. For some reason this time around I have a lot of fears (and pain) that I never had with my other two.

I am so excited and blessed to be able to add another little baby to our family. I can’t wait to cuddle and snuggle this sweet little boy and watch my kids fall in love with him too. I guess my worry is that when he gets here I am going to fall apart – since I feel like I am barely hanging on now. I worry that while I am trying to adjust to no sleep, a messy house and two arms with three kids that I will fail somewhere – mostly with these two:

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I always think it is sad in a way to have your baby become the older sibling and not be the baby anymore. My first two are 14 months apart. I knew I was pregnant with my daughter when my son was just 5 months old – so I feel like I never got adjusted to one baby before our darling second one came along. I have always just had 2 kids and she has been the baby for almost 2 years. She is my princess. I love when she sits on my lap and curls over my belly and snuggles with me.

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Quinn loves the thought of a new baby. He and the baby are sharing rooms and he loves to show me everything that will be the new baby’s. I love when he snuggles up to me and rubs my tummy and asks to feel the baby. One night he told me “Oh! Her’s so cute!” I know he has no idea how much his life is about to change but I can tell he loves his little brother already.

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I fear that the baby will be the squeaky wheel and get all the grease and I won’t be a good mother to Quinn and Tenley. This is partly why I am taking time off from blogging for a couple weeks before the baby gets here. I am 100% ready with everything the baby needs – but still have a few things on my “to-do” list to complete and they all have to do with my kids – like the zoo and the aquarium and a few more trips to the park. The Disney Channel has been a HUGE staple in our home these past few weeks and I feel like I need to make it up to them before we are confined to our house – in the cold weather – living off the Disney Channel and Mac n’ Cheese!

Along with the fear I have a lot of excitement too. How fun to add another baby to our family. I am totally and completely in love with my children – totally addicted – and cannot wait to triple the love in our home. I cannot wait to see Spencer with our baby for the first time. I cannot wait to go into recovery and see Quinn and Tenley waiting to love on their new brother and for that first family photo. I cannot wait to watch my kiddos “help” the new baby (although I am worried some smothering might occur) and give him kisses and want to hold him. I am excited to expand our family and grow in love.

and I am not going to lie… I am excited to be done being pregnant for this round! But I will really miss feeling him move all over and his every. single. night hiccups! Being pregnant really is a beautiful thing.

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Karen said...

Beautiful pictures Amanda! Best of luck to you and many prayers for an easy delivery!

Whit said...

you are so cute! I am excited to see the little one soon!

Jessica said...

beautiful pictures and beautifully written post. I can tell you are a wonderful mom and that you will do great because of these fears. They will motivate you to be the best you can be every day! I look forward to learning about the new addition, but enjoy your time away from the computer!

Jill @ Create.Craft.Love. said...

What beautiful pictures! Your kiddos are so cute and I am excited for you to welcome #3! I think you are just bursting with love and gratitude and that can seem overwhelming. Disney Channel and Mac n Cheese will be fine for awhile. It's an adjustment for everyone. You will do great! Can't wait to see pics of the new guy!

Leslie @ Violet Imperfection said...

This post is just beautiful and I love how honest you are. I think sometimes we feel guilty for our fear and we shouldn't. Hugs to you!

Rhiannon said...

i hear you. ive been so emotional with this one and keep looking at my first born like what happened to my baby? I worry all the time.
You guys will ALL enjoy the baby, good luck for a smooth transition and best wishes!

Angie said...

Manda, you can do it! You are such a great mom and all 3 of them are lucky to have you. Can't wait to meet baby!

Kristie said...

Love your hair. It is so cute at this length. And your pictures turned out so cute.
I remember going from 2 to 3 kids. I feel like they really threw me off my groove. But in a good way. A way that makes me want to have as many memories as possible of all the fun things we have done together, and skip some of the "supposed to do things". And it will all be ok in the end.

Lori Rushing said...

You are going to be a great mother!! To ALL 3 of your children!! The fear that you feel just means that you are going to do an awesome job. Just be patient with yourself most of all. You are human & can do all things through Christ who gives us strength.

Melanie said...

You look so super amazing. Adorable prego! I LOVE these pictures! The ones with the kiddo's are SOOOO Cute. I'm excited for you cutie. Good luck with everything. I wish you well.

Kara said...

This is a beautiful post Amanda! I am so excited for you, and I know that you will be just as awesome of a mom with 3 as you are with 2. Can't wait to see your new addition! Hugs my friend. :)

Becky said...

I had a lot of the same fears when I was pregnant with my third baby. First, I actually found it easier to take care of everyone once I wasn't pregnant. I think I am at my least able (motherhood-wise for anyone I'm not actually growing in my body) starting around week 35 through when I give birth. You are huge. You are emotional. You are completely distracted. Newborns demand a lot but you can nurse and cuddle another child at the same time. You can't hold anyone on your lap when you are 9 months pregnant. Second, being a big sister continually thrills my daughter (number 2). She has a playmate and a minion! She still gets to be the little since she has a big brother but she also gets to be an older. It's the best of both worlds! You will be great. It will be hard for a little while but it really will all settle out and be wonderful.

Unknown said...

Your pictures are amazing! You are almost there and then you with have that adorable bundle to snuggle. I am just around the corner and happy to help however I can. I have about a gazillion Disney movies too if you ever need a change of scenery. :)


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